Am i missin someone there? Today's feeling suck! Don't know what am i doing there.. Can i just act like nothing when i having problem or feel sad? I hate to show people my stupid face..

Sorry toshii i'll reply you late.. Cause im so lazy to reply or post.. Tired & Lazy..
Hope you Don't mind..

My mom said she wanna ask a collage for me but i don't know whether true or not. If yea then this is the moment to let me think.. I hate this collage so much even all the teachers..
Always talk about Asignment.. We just keep on doing asignment for them not learn..(To my feel) They really suck!!
My mom so agree me to change too.. But ...*Thinking*
I don't know what to do actually..
i guess you guys will ask me to change..
Toshii you too right?

Im tired! Im tired! My head was like heavy but homework... Haven't finish!! What the hell!!
The stupid '' Observation Study For Mobile Phone '' need to draw 30 part of the phone.. Tomorrow need to pass up redi but i still left 24 part to go.. My God! God Bless me!!!!!!

Today went to Prangin Mall with Yens & Jun.. I Was treat them roti only.. I want treat them food but they don't want..
The time when i walked with Jun I SAW Yean Ling and i was Hi to her.. Everything was pass now we were just look like the first time when we met. Actually i Got SHOCK when i suddenly saw her.. Can count as suprise.. LOL ( Don't you think a side)

Additional Part :
Actually i hope not to let them know what i writen here.. Cause i just wanna express my feeling here.. Im NOT try to show them what im thinking..
Hope that they won't come read my blog! *praying*

她没次都说她很累但她有没有想过我也很累呢? Okie! 有可能我不知道她的难过或者是她的过去。不过你也要想到别人的感受。你知道你的一个生气能让人觉得厌倦吗？拜托！不要为了一点小事就生气，你难受我也很难受，只是朋友为何要搞得那么复杂？连一点小事也不能忍吗？你有没有为我们想过？
以前的我不会去安慰或者说些话嚷人开心的。你不爽那就算。现在的我觉得够了！我以做了我因该和不因该的事了，

如你们还是觉得我做的东西是不够的话那我无能为力了！

“ 我真的很差吗？我不够关心你们吗？还是不够在乎你们？
为何你们每次都说我在欺负你们又没关心你们？ ”

不错，我认识你们的确是认事了很多东西也很开心，不过我也同时见识了很多不开心的事。
其实我也没后悔认识你们，唯一我觉得最后悔的是进入了一间我不因该进的学校。太烂了!
他们不会为了我而开心或伤心而是她们给我的感觉是他们跟本不在呼我。

有谁能告诉我为什么我在家的情绪和在学校的情绪是不一样的？

其实没可望些什么，我只希望要快乐的过生活。
我不大烦这一些，我还要烦我家人的事情。
今天我的家人又在吵架了！好烦噢！
我以控制我自己别想太多了。还是没用！我真没用！
可怜的我只能把这一切收藏在一个永远没人知道的地方，那就是我心里。

坚持？
我能坚持多久？
。。。

I don't like her! Both of us are just a friends.. Nothing much! Please don't you guys keep saying i like her.. I Never plan to chase her or what. I just wanna set her in my bestfriend list but i guess she will not set me in her bestfriend list.. Cause she got so much friends.. She won't reliase me..

About ling i don't know what she thinking actually.. Not only her suzan also the same.. I never say anything i just wanna know what you guys actually think..

I'm lost!

You know what i really change a lot after i enter this school.. They will not know.. Never!
* Who can actually understand me? *
But actually no one understand me also no that weird.. Cause i can't even understand myself..
I don't know what i want..

One last time..
I don't her! We are just a friend.
Don't you guys playing around ( I mean between me & her)

I don't like her ok.. Don't you guys keep saying i like her.. Impossible you know.. Ok wait i hope anyone don't mention her name if u know..
both of us just a friends.. Nothing much ok.. I don't wish to like her too.. Please don't make me fall on her.. PLEASE!!!
I DON'T LIKE HER!!!!
Don't ask me to think about it.. I won't! cause i don't like her..

Sorry le suzan.. I should ask u 1 more time but you told me you won't so easy to get angry one.. Why today you so angry until don't want reply me?? Or u busying now? Don't play me la wei.. Don't because a little happen angry me.. No point! Hope you will reply me soon..

My mom was scolded me.. Just get scolded from her only.. After tomorrow nothing redi.. They was like never happe..lucky!! I though i will very teruk.. hit me maybe.. But never..

Toshii, you still having exam right now? ok or not? everything is under control huh? sure you will.. Haha.. Good luck anyway..

First im going to apologize to two people..
First: Suzan
Hey suzan im so sorry about that.. Yea, you asked me to stay ur house but if i keep saying no also can and you some more gave me a imformation to asked me call back but i never listen to you so this's not your fault..Don't worry about me..(i know u won't too) Maybe it will take long time to get well.. Today i will get scold or hit from my mom and im ready for that.. Never mind le.. I was enjoy yesterday.. Enough for that..

Second: My mom
Im so sorry for began so worry about me.. I knew that this's my fault. Overnight at her house without your permission.. NO next time.. I Promise !

Later is my time to die...

She was scolded me in the morning..That time i was in suzan's car. The things i feel sad is not my mom cried. it's the time when she feel bad for never take good care for me.. I thought she will scold me when im going back.. I really really Sorry!!

Toshii i got a good news here!! Im ok now! When they talked about him & her. I won't feel so angry redi. I just asked him to message her whether she back redi or not. Im teaching him how to message her. Since he said he is my bro then just teach him. He some more asked me i wont feel sad when they talked about him & her. I was answer '' not really'' I feel more better than last time..
Is that a good news toshii??
But ofcause sometime will miss her too.. Actually at the same time i asked him to message her, I feel like going to message her too but i never send. I let him ask.. Im was think to ask her whether she back redi? where are you? eat redi?
He said if nobody fetch her then how.. I answered him 'you go fetch her'..
Maybe i don't like this type of girl. I love the girl who like to stay at home.(yea ofcause will going out with her friends too but not like 1 girl 3 or 4 guy) The first time i knew this thing i was so worry about her actually.. After i heard from someone only i knew that she always like that.. Then nothing else i can say..
Actually i sure that she wont choose me so i just give up. Maybe he got chance so just help him up..

I don't know whether she will angry me or not if again accidentally read my blog maybe will angry (i guess) Hope she won't angry le.
Actually today im thinking to talk with her but after suzan called her, she was like .. Don't really answer so i never call her.

just discuss with him about sunday night go out for choosing photo.. Actually im thinking to ask her out but still don't know whether she got come back from town redi or not.. If i message her feel weird cause im not talking to her in this few days anyway. So maybe i'll ask him to ask her.. Cause im not suppose to ask her now.. He suppose to ask..
I scared i'll fall in again & i hope it will not happen..
Today i really happy cause i never show them my stupid face.. LOL

Sometime i don't know why i feel sad when i heard something about him & her but is still going to help me.. Actually i did that happen but i'll feel sad.. What am i doing? *sight*
The most funny is i never ask her.. Everything i want to ask i just ask from him so i think he will ask her.. so i can know from him..

I was going to Suzan' house.. After class she fetch me back her house. We was saving some photo to make a collage for our classmate. That was fun.. Cause their face look funny. Haha
Actually after i went to her house listened to what she said. I felt that im not so pity in this world. Ofcause still got a lot of people pity than me. After her story made me feel better right now.
I feel better today..
I trying to set all this as normal as i have face..
Maybe after today i can tell u the answer.. I know u hope to know my good news here. Sure i won't let you feel dissapointed on me.. Hehe

Wait my good news.. LOL

难受的我又撑过一天了。本来今天想逃课，不过到最后还是上了这一堂课。到现在唯子这一堂课是最难受。对，有可能他们觉得没什么，我想这是我的问题吧。他每次都要跟我讲他和她之间的事。他到底了解我的感受吗？对，我说过可以追她不待表可以跟我讲你们两的过程。每当他跟我讲他们两的过程我都会很难受。昨天他去找她，他还帮她作了7面的 Sketching book。不是我不西欢他帮她，你想如果有一天她真的爱上了她，我会怎么想。我只能的看着他们谈情说爱。你想，这种心情爽吗？簡之爽到说不出口。

我病了！最好病了3天不用上班。那该多好。躺在床上什么都不用管该多好。

Sometime im sad but i'll remember what Toshii told. I will always keep my sadness in my heart and i won't show it to all my friends that im sad..

He really chase her now.. what is my feeling right now? Don't know..
I some more teach him.. Im i crazy?? huh?? But no need to teach also he will go ahead. I was told him i got a bit beh syok she understand too.. After we discuss i think we won't quarrel because of her.. Both of us still are the battle of the guitar hero..LOL Now he going to find her.. So good.. Sure i feel abit beh song but sure i will control myself right..
You read all this you will feel swaet about us..
Yea, I know something that im not suppose to know.. but both of us settle already so i guess nothing happen already.. I hope everything is under control..

As i can see, She treat me so bad sure no chance.. Maybe he look different.. No bad no good (i guess) so he still got chance.. Sure i won't do something bad about them.. Maybe i will help me..
Don't worry about me cause i will be fine soon.. Like what suzan told me, *I gonna be strong* lyric by miley cyrus the climb
Just check my latest post see how is my result.. See whether can face it or not..LOL
i feel sweat about everything..

Im giving him a chance to chase her.. Am i crazy? Actually i give him chance i will feel a bit .. i don't know how to say but this few days i really treat her bad.. She always gave me a bad feeling to her.. She can't even help me when my friends talked about me *we was played around* She would only help my friends. I don't know what she think actually.. Since she don't like me then i just let him go. If he really want to chase her i can't do anything also.. Last time i would always looking at her see whether she got online or not but now .. not always. Sometime she online also i didn't call her. Maybe i will slowly forget about her.. If i do then this's my first time to change my target so fast.. Last time i called her, both of us would actually talk more than 1 hour but that day i was called her about 5 minute only.
She was change her attitude a bit. Last Time she don't know her homework, she would asked me to do for her but now i said wanna help her, she said she wanna try first. Not bad what.. She is changing. About hanging out with friends. I don't know she still got hanging out with her friends or not. (i mean went out at midnight) If not always then sure she really got change..

* If u accidentaly read it and u angry then sorry about that..*
but i guess she won't spend her time to read my blog.. Hehe

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Quite a simple & short post here..
can cause by stupid post.. LOL

The first photo i upload this the one i told that he brought it today.. Look! So nice..

Today i brought a model guitar from Botanica Garden.. Actually cheaper than S&J so much..

Today i went to Snap shoot but i will upload tomorrow cause now feel sleepy..