It's been about a year now
ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy
how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
it still smells just like you
damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep.

I tried my best at moving on have yet to find a girl like you
I see things that I didn't before and I'm wishing I had more time with you,
How do you stay awake knowing all I do is think of you
All the things we thought about that never will happen again if I could just see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl
In your favorite car with the missing top
man around my way where we used to park and did all those things to steal your heart
(Chorus 2x)

It's been about a year now
ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy h
ow do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
it still smells just like you damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep.

Baby all that I hear from my friends again and again and again (they come and ask about you) (they say) we saw your girl at the game and damn we gotta say a big mistake by you.
Not only does your body bang but I miss the conversation too
Tell me that you couldn't sleep can't think can't eat till I come see you
If I had my way
I'll come and get you girl

In your favorite car with the missing top
man around my way where we used to parkand
did all those things to steal your heart
It's been about a year now ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me it still smells just like you damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep
It's been about a year now ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me it still smells just like you damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep

I HATE OCTOBER SO MUCH

人群之中让我最伤的就是她。埙坏他人是一个不良习惯，不管在哪一个方面都有人会这样。谁管得着。

你啊，真叫我羡慕。你能那么大胆写下这么大的‘我喜欢你’好佩服哦！可算是勇敢了。你的勇敢真叫我说声赞不可。哈哈。但我告诉你，有一些话或字不可随便说或写，不然你会后悔。要好好的记住。别把我的话当成一边风。虽然我不是教你或指导你，我只是提醒你。记得要牢牢的记住我的话。哈哈！
有时我觉得我很白痴无敌。专门干那些无聊的事。

其实我的坏处还蛮多一下，反而好处又算不出来。我没办法算出我的好处在那儿。

昨天我真的很生气，但我又资格生气吗？没有。我真的觉得不公平。
我现在觉得越来越累。每天都要用那种语言讲话。好累也。

I don't think is Sunburn le.. maybe Food Poisioning.. Feeling not well today.. feeling wanna vomit. Shit! Damn it!
I kinda sad when siao kia ling told me she will going to leave but don't know when..haiz
Today actually almost will feel happy but after heard what she said.. make me feel sad. I don't mean that lu hai wa but .. haiz nothing already le..
Actually she gave me a feeling to told me that she very excited to leave us.. You damn bad just leave us like that.. hate u lo..
虽然我很自持你的选择但我也很讨厌你的选择。我真的很讨厌也。其实如果我出声留你，我可算是自私，不果我很想把你留下来啦。如果能留着你我愿意成为一个自私的我，我说真的。有可能你会觉得很好笑或白痴但我只是想告诉你。

Heavy Rain, Yesterday nite was raining. Kinda cold. Feel comfurtable when the wind was blow to me.. *Enjoyed*

Wei, Siao Kia Ling you sure you want leave d meh? ni zhen de she de wo men ma? bu guo wo hei hen ken ting de kao su ni wo si bu she de ni lo.. Sure i hope you will not leaving.
What if you are not in the class anymore?? I never think it before.. haha will you feel funny i wrote all this? Sure, i kinda feel funny but seriously i really hope you wont leave us la..
Actaully i asked so many time also you will leave.. is it Useless? Hundred and thousand time i ask also you wont listen to me one right?
Anyway i'll actually surport what you choose.. This's ur choice, life or maybe can call as 'game' so you have to select what you want, what you need..
What can i answer you if you tell me you going to leave soon?? Ask you to stay? Will you listen to me? No ofcause..haha

Oppss.. Today's raining day! Heavy rain here.. What am i gonna do now? Althought i still got homework haven't done yet.
Movie? some of the DvD my laptop can't use. =.=
Design my homework? Quite lazy.
Sleep? Just woke up.
Play online games? Feel boring.
Chat? No topic.
Message ling? No reply =.=lll
Go to school? Holiday x.x
Hang out with friends? no event
Hang out with tiff? Feel left out (so not going)

What am i suppose to do!!!!!
Why holiday until so many days?!?!
Damn boring!!
Some more no people invite..haiz
(accept Tiff but feel will kena left out later so im not going)

Im sorry for that cause im going to use chinese to continue..

20 september 09 我和他们去了 Balik Pulau ,Pulau Betong, Jetty.
但在Balik Pulau 途中我竟然想念着一个人。我真的想念她也，我真的不敢相信。我真的不敢相信我会在次的想念她。我不因该在想念她的，她不会喜欢我的，所以说啊！不要放希望在她身上。在说，他还是喜欢她的。虽然他跟我说他对她只是有Feeling。但在他跟我说时，我心总时觉得不安。如我先在所做的一切都一样，在显示这我没那种感觉。我也不想对她有什么感觉，因为她跟本不喜欢我。我跟本就没资格喜欢一个人。我根本就不能让人幸福还是快乐。
没联络她的日子好像有点怪。

算了吧！我也不想再烦些我根本得不到的东西。专心在读书方面，但我不能担保我做得到但我会经我的力。我不需要忘了她。我只需要刻意的忘掉她，我只需要当做没发生过。那是最好的选择。

你知道为什么我在今年不想过生日吗？就是因为我没一次的生日都过得不是很开心，虽然我朋友都来庆祝跟我，但没人能为我庆祝生日。在我生日那天也不是很开心。每一年的生日都不能让我觉得有难忘得一天。难忘的一天真的是太难了。

所以这是我不想在庆祝的原因。因为我不想在发生多一次。而且我也不想让他们破费。好像Derrick 他生日我都没送他。所以我也不敢去要他的礼物。

幸福的祝福，我就满足了。
在我 FORM3 那一年开始我就不是很其待 23号的来令。有一年肯死，完全忘了我自己的生日。还要人来提醒我。现在的生日对我来说不是什么很大不了的事情了。有或没有都过个谱同的日子。

Actually today's movie not bad quite funny.. but how funny is the show also i feel bored.. Im so sweat =.=lll
I can realise that this few day i in class different jor..
What can i say about my feeling now?
ERm..
..HOPELESS..
Ya, That's my feeling..

You know what?!
How i treat him like how she treat me.. it's the same case.. so now i know what he feel but i have to do this cause i dont like him and she did it too..
Today i really talk with Roxasl.. he can understnad me.. finally.. but i told him liao i feel angry about what they did.. i really angry..

ok I'll promise myself that next post will got a good post here..
no more sad post..
One more thing.. i will tryin to forget you totally.. This is my job now..
I don't want to like/love anyone anymore..'
I just wanna be a playful...
can i make it?

歌曲：我的回忆不是我 - 海鸣威

伤心的总会任性
灰心的总会用气力
将最好的过去将最多的细碎
锁到属于你的眼睛
失恋的不够耐心
失恋的不信是注定
于最黑的世界
于最光的刹那感动
属于你的气息
即使很多一起过的
想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见但承诺可再听
什么可不变色oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认
回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我总是太感性
失恋的都有惰性
失恋的都记住约定
当理想的世界
当理想的刹那
因爱无分你的我的
即使很多一起过的
想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见但承诺可再听
什么可不变色oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认
回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我总是太感性
当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认
回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我总是太感性

WTF? When i prepare all the things he suddenly told me the contest was cancel.. Funny! =.=
doesn't matter.. but i just feel angry that i cannot go shooting this is the point that i feel angry.. some more nobody fetch me go school. Luckily Roxasl can fetch me.. =.=lll

I don't need to do anything cause i know time will prove everything even explain also i feel it's useless.. Maybe this's my fault or .. I don't know.. I don't care anymore.. useless if i think too much. People won't care also.. Just do what i want.. Who care?!

Tomorrow morning will going to round Penang Island with Aaron them.. total got 6 ppl there.. Is that fun?

Maybe i too kind sure you guys would think im good to bully.. Since u guys think im good bully mean force me to change.. Change attitude? Easy way!Some of them i won't cin cai to them redi.. Useless..
About him, im so angry about him.. keep kacau me but i get scolded from sis. What to do? I already told sis but she only said don't care about him. Like don't believe in me.. He keep sent me the pet society item. I already sent him back all but he still sent back.. I already warning him if send me back i will going to send to others. Luckily today is his birthday if not sure i scold him ask him don't kacau me again I Don't like him.. He come itself i never do anything why said until all my fault? NOT Fair!!

Actually today suppose to be happy because today is 09.09.09 a special day..
to everyone is a good or special day but to me is a bad day..Although it is a special day..

Sometime no need to think about others feeling cause they never think about my feeling.. This is what i know.. People will only know your fault when they fault they won't feel it and this is what i know too..
Can anyone feel that?
You know what i feel when people think u are good to bullying?
No more kind! I won't so kind to them anymore..
Even they not feeling to mix with me or hang out with me also i don't care anymore..

我真的觉得我很缺德。有些事我跟本不因该想，不因该做但我偏偏做了。但我真的不能忍受我做的一切。 我想清楚了，如我在这样下去那我不会刊垂忘掉。不过我做得到吗？我希望当我忘了这件事的其间不要在提起。《我会扯低忘掉》 我相信我做得到，以前能现在也能。

我不会在像以前的我了，如很小事骂我，我一定反脸。我不会在手下流情。太荒茂了。
为何我会变成这样？ 我很讨厌‘缺德’ 但我还是做了。
我真的不敢相信，我竟然做了些缺德的东西。

[ 神，请原谅我的缺德。对不起！]

Hey i really hope to celebrate with you.. Would you accept me? I know you got work i can go find you after you rest. Would you give me a chance to celebrate with you? I hope that you will asnwer yes sure..

God bless me i really hopw to celebrate with her..

Did i change my attitude here??
why most of the people said im different like last time?!?!

From now onwards i won't always keep answer people 'Yes' 'Ok' 'No Problem'
I'll only say 'No'
unless i feel pity or what reason only i'll say yes..
cause if i say yes to them they will only think that im good to bully...
this attitude i should change..

Yesterday it hapened until too rush. I can't accept the happen.. I hate him so much.. I hate she too..
Actually i have nothing to post anymore..
all the bad thing don't remind again..
let it dissappear.. Gone!